Heartbreak and Holding Grudges
Yeah, it's been a while since I posted. I was sick.
I did get the next episode of Relationship Talk Radio up last night. It was the continuation of the last episode where we talked with Jo Jo Tabares of Art of Eloquence. I thought it was interesting to hear Roy and Jo Jo's takes on how society's influence is affecting trends in marriage. I posted about one of those trends on the blog over there.
Anyway, I was sad today to learn that Internet Based Moms will be discontinuing the Audio Interviews after this next batch is completed this month. Not just because I liked the money (though of course I'll have to replace the income so I can continue to work towards my thousand dollar goal that will bring me home) --but also because I really thought it was a great idea to have these interviews with successful entrepreneurs sharing their insights and advice. Alas, it never quite caught on and therein lies the heartache.
As for holding grudges, well it seems I tell myself I should be over my co-worker and her birthday insult by now (when she chose a cake that said Older than Dirt for me when every other female member of the staff has received a boy toy on a bearskin rug on their cake for their birthdays) but every so often something comes up that reminds me of it and brings back the anger. Today was one of those days.
I'm 35 and for the most part I'm comfortable with that. I have a beautiful family and a beautiful home - things I consider benefits of being my age, rewards for getting through the lean years. Most days, that's enough for me and I can accept it. But having my nose rubbed in the fact that I'm no longer quite youthful makes me cranky and snarly. I'm sure she'll understand when she's older and not quite so perky, but in the meantime it just ticks me off that she feels in any way entitled...
It makes me want to make sure I go in to the office with massive amounts of food on her "can't have" list and eat them all. (She's on a diet...) Not my fault I've got three kids and can maintain at 125 lbs without dieting. But that would be mean. And considering I felt bad the other day when I was at my desk and hungry and discovered a leftover Easter Reese...it would probably hurt my own conscience more than it hurts her feelings.
I just have to get over it and let it go.
I'm sure one day I will...
But not today...
I did get the next episode of Relationship Talk Radio up last night. It was the continuation of the last episode where we talked with Jo Jo Tabares of Art of Eloquence. I thought it was interesting to hear Roy and Jo Jo's takes on how society's influence is affecting trends in marriage. I posted about one of those trends on the blog over there.
Anyway, I was sad today to learn that Internet Based Moms will be discontinuing the Audio Interviews after this next batch is completed this month. Not just because I liked the money (though of course I'll have to replace the income so I can continue to work towards my thousand dollar goal that will bring me home) --but also because I really thought it was a great idea to have these interviews with successful entrepreneurs sharing their insights and advice. Alas, it never quite caught on and therein lies the heartache.
As for holding grudges, well it seems I tell myself I should be over my co-worker and her birthday insult by now (when she chose a cake that said Older than Dirt for me when every other female member of the staff has received a boy toy on a bearskin rug on their cake for their birthdays) but every so often something comes up that reminds me of it and brings back the anger. Today was one of those days.
I'm 35 and for the most part I'm comfortable with that. I have a beautiful family and a beautiful home - things I consider benefits of being my age, rewards for getting through the lean years. Most days, that's enough for me and I can accept it. But having my nose rubbed in the fact that I'm no longer quite youthful makes me cranky and snarly. I'm sure she'll understand when she's older and not quite so perky, but in the meantime it just ticks me off that she feels in any way entitled...
It makes me want to make sure I go in to the office with massive amounts of food on her "can't have" list and eat them all. (She's on a diet...) Not my fault I've got three kids and can maintain at 125 lbs without dieting. But that would be mean. And considering I felt bad the other day when I was at my desk and hungry and discovered a leftover Easter Reese...it would probably hurt my own conscience more than it hurts her feelings.
I just have to get over it and let it go.
I'm sure one day I will...
But not today...
posted by Patrysha at 3:41 PM
2 Comments:
Oh, my gosh. What kind of idiot buys a cake inscribed with "older than dirt" for a co-worker? Is she mentally challenged?
Has it occurred to you that she's jealous of you?
Whatever you do, don't give in and start thinking of yourself as "less than youthful." Some people are young in their 70s; others are old at 25.
I suspect your psycho coworker is not going to age well. Karma and all that, you know.
You know I've never really thought about why. Her personal answer was that she thought I had enough of a sense of humor to take the joke...and I did publicly take it very well that day with smiles and laughter.
As the great granddaughter of a lady who stayed young at heart until into her 90's, I'm not really concerned that she'll have me thinking I'm less than youthful. I'm just mad that she had the gall to suggest that I was, kwim? You just don't do that to a person on their birthday of all days! That's gotta be etiquette 101 stuff...
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